Most of the time I can hide my dyslexia. Most people don't know that I have a disability. I mean I don't walk with a cane or have a patch over my eye. I don't speak with an impediment. I can carry on a decent intelligent conversation. A dyslexic doesn't look different from anyone else. Most of the time I am able to catch my mistakes before they are plastered for all to see, and since everyone makes typos or misspells words a lot of the time it goes unnoticed anyway. Then there are Digus mistakes. When those things happen my insecurity jumps to center stage and to cope with my embarrassment I start my dyslexic confessions. Perhaps this is one now.
I think the reason so may dyslexic people are artistic is because of the nature of the disability itself. It takes may forms but basically it is a dysfunction of the "coding" process. All written language is just a code. We all agree that these little symbols on a page mean something. The letters are codes of a sounds. When we link these sounds together they form a word which is another symbolic code for an idea or object. Our minds can usually make the symbolic connection even when all the letters aren't (there is a case in point) all there.
For a dyslexic a word isn't a set of sounds representative of an idea, it is a picture. It is a graphic, a picture that means something. If someone were to misspell the name McDonalds on the fast food sign, but keep the logo font and color the same, I don't think I would notice the mistake. It is not a word it is just a picture to me. It represents McDonalds. Like most of us would not notice the Mona Lisa with a small wart on her chin unless we were studying very closely. So words become pictures of ideas for me. I skip right pass the step where you we sound out the letters in the word picture makes.
In school, the solution to my reading problems and spelling problems was always the same. I would come upon a word that I did not know. A teacher would say, "Sound out the word, Jay". Sound it out? I don't hear it in my head, how is that going to help me. I will just hear a cacophony of sounds and never relate it to a word or much less an idea. Besides, Anglo Saxons have decided to use silent letters, and alternate pronunciations in the English language as a rule rather than an occasional exception. Just tell me the word, Teacher, so I can associate it with what it represents in my mind.
So it is much easier for a dyslexic to draw or paint because a painting is a symbol that doesn't need the proper sound. A picture just has to covey an idea with no predetermined, acceptable arrangement of letter sounds. We dyslexics are closer to the creative process because we go directly from symbol to idea rather than having to translate it into sounds or other common denominators. We also excel in anything that is not required to be written. We are good speakers, great mechanics, excellent athletes, painters, musicians, and great writers when we have someone else check the spelling. Of course no matter how hard we try to compete in this non written world, the rest of the world is locked into proper spelling. Once in a while this word symbol mind game gets in the way. For me it has always meant big mistakes in public places.
In high school I was president of the radio club. One of the duties of the Radio club was to broadcast daily announcements over the school PA system. It was an announcers job. The other clubs or the principal wrote copy for us to read regarding things that the entire school needed to know. By the time I was a senior I was the voice of RHS in the afternoon.
I rehearsed and reread every announcement before hand just to make sure I knew all the words. Then there was the day that an important announcement for the National Honor Society was handed to me just as I went "on the air". It was the last day for the NHS to get a count of its members. I was trying to tell them to come to the office and sign a list. However, what I read was,
"Will all current members of the National Honor Society please come to room #214 after class and sign the ROOSTER." Roster and rooster are very similar pictures, but very different ideas. But it was too late, the entire school of 2000 erupted in one large guffaw which quickly rumbled down the halls. For weeks there after supportive friends would make rooster noises at me in the hall.
As you were,
Jay
I only realy have problems with one word these days Jay.
ReplyDeleteits the word "the"( or teh as i usualy type it)
i dont know why i should be unable to type the word, but i cant.( it took two goes to get that last one right by the way)
Its funny, but being my age, ( 45) i can remember the time that i was thought of as backward. In fact, one teacher was so convinced i was dumb, she sat me at the back of her class, with a swatch of cloth, and some thread. my mother one day went to the classroom, and in front of the whole room, tore her to shreads( verbaly). fortunatly one of the first centres devoted to the study of dyslexia was just around the corner from where we lived. And they diagnosed dyslexia.
it was too late of course. by that time, my mind set was there for good, and my self esteem, was.. damaged somewhat.
it wasnt untill i moved up to the next school, and found myself in the class of the wonderfull dee shelly, that things started to improve. Dee shelly, was a wonderfull lady, with a full boosum, and a wide imagination. and she was also lucky enough to of been involved with teh formation of the childrens television workshop, and sesemy street. Dee, ( who must be long gone by now) was the first person to show me that teh imagination, was the human bodys greatest asset
This is a post from Lodnon, which is how I typed it for many years.
ReplyDeleteIt's not a real post as such and it may be an opening of an already healed wound (albeit there was't a room arranged at the Four Seasons).
But I'd (we'd) somehow missed the fact of the show having closed here. Having seen the show on the second night in New York and raved about it ever since, it was outwith comprehension that every time I tried to book tickets the Arts Theatre (yeah, of whatever...) site continues to tantalize with the continuing run of this unique piece of theatre (damn, I've gushed. I really didn't mean to.)
but the Ticketmaster website merely said that it didn't have any tickets available at this time. (The National Theatre's site had just given me the same thing about another show but had suggested times when their site would have tickets.) I had to do a fair old bit of googling to get the awful truth.
I've been feeling down and empty ever since as have the two people I was going with (one of whom had only heard the other two raving.) Please, come back to London when I've finally talked you up into legend. Could take weeks.
Jay, I wish we all only felt embarrassed when things were within our control.
ReplyDeleteScrewing up is one thing; not being wired to spot typos is another thing altogether, and as the saying goes, "It's not your fault, so why beat yourself up?"
And especially since this a blog -- by definition not a forum where you should have to hire a full-time proofreader -- I think a little typo now and then is more than acceptable.
If and when you're ready to write a book, you may want to hire a professional proofer. Until then, no worries.